hey you

hey you, YOU!!
sheltered life girl

do you know how it feels
to be raped
when you're nine
again and again
day after day, night after night??

hey YOU
I'M TALKING TO YOU
do you know what its like
when at seven
you're no longer
daddy's princess - cos daddy's dead

and when at nine
you no longer have a mother
cos she up and died
on you too??

no good byes
you're just sent to live
with a pack of animals

HEY YOU!!!
YOU!!!!!!!
SHELTERED LIFE GIRL

YOU - LOOK AT ME
WHEN I'M TALKING TO YOU

do you know what it's like
sheltered life girl
to eat your own vomit??
to sit at a table
your back never to slouch
all night
till your plate is clean??

do you know what it's like
to not be allowed to sleep
or even lay down to rest
to stand in a corner
through an endless night
till day breaks
simply because you spoke
when you weren't asked too??
then to be sent to school
and laughed at
cos you are dirty and smelly
because you had been
to frightened to shower
at home??
"orphan annie" and smelly annie"
they were just two
of the kind names given to me

hey there
you

are you listening yet??
do you know how it feels
the urge to cut yourself
to release the hurt
to feel the pain
to feel alive

to make yourself
as ugly as you can??

do you know how it feels
the urge to die
to escape this world??

do you know the strength it takes
to rid all those feelings
to fight them
and remain alive
or unhurt

do you understand
the need for a mother
sheltered life girl??
the need for a family?
the need for a friend?

do you understand
the need for
an identity??

NO
of course not
you'd rather not know
for you
fortunately
are one of the lucky ones
who had people
who treated you kindly
who fed and loved you
and as you grew
presented you with positive role models
you had people who cared
you've never felt pain
not REAL pain
the sort of pain that haunts you
night after night

YET
you judge ME
and label me
hang and sentence me
for how and what
is 'ME'

for what i represent
before the jury is even out

why not just try
to know or understand
just a little piece of me

just a tiny
little
piece of what i am

do you have any idea
what it's like
in this silent
yet turmoiled
life i lead

inside myself??
do you think
it's what i want??

oh - of course
i forgot
you can't try to understand
cos if you did
it would shatter
the idyllic view
you have of this
tainted world

you would have to admit
that this world is fucked up

but don't worry
sheltered life girl
i won't rock your boat
with too much detail
that comfort zone you sit in
allows
your world to be safe

for blind people like you

ann